This Night

Ever have one of those nights where the world falls away and you are left with the realizations that you have nothing to cling to?
Or, when the only sounds you hear your own misery and loneliness screaming out at you?
Tonight is that night....

Ever have the moment where you are left sitting alone in crowded room? All you can do is sit there, look around and fade away?
Or, you finally see the cracks in own your mask as it falls and shatters when it hits the pavement?
This is that moment.....

What is a person to do when this happens?
Retreat? Cower away? Surrender to the emotions of failure, self-pity, and sadness?
Or, are we to pull ourselves hearts, souls, and minds together and fight back?

But how does one back when they are faced with their own inner demons, shadows, and emotions?
You cannot fight own emotions no matter how much you wish you didnt feel that way. It is impossible.
This night is that night....

This is the night where you decide whether you should stand your ground or fall to your knees.
This is the night where you choose to get up and walk away from the negative emotions surrounding your heart.
This is the night where you opt to wallow in a self made hell.

There is always a choices.
There is always a way out.
There is always a decision to be made.

I may choice to walk away.
You may decide to ignore it.  
We both may select to fight.

But there is one thing you and I must remember...
Those feelings, thoughts, demons...
They are still there in our hearts and souls.

Their claws are forever digging a path to our hearts.
So, decide your own route
Then this will be the night you choose to run.

For me, this night is not over.
This night to me is the night I choose to fight.
This could could be my last.

Why fight?
I know I cannot win.
I know it will be a struggle.

And yes, I know I said that I cannot win.
But, this night needs  to happen.
This night is my proving ground.

It is where I took my last stand.
It will be where I show them that I am not weak.
It will the place I teach them I can fight.

It will the night they prove they are stronger than me.
It will the night where they will back down.
This night will end.

When it does, my demons and I will still be standing.
In the golden glow of a new day, we will realize one thing.
That one, singular notion is...

When a night like this falls again,
when the skies and minds are cloudy and dark,
We will live through those dark nights.